Of memories of every day things and of things that may never happen again
Things that I take for granted
Looking at my mountaintop high's and valley low's of the year made me ask the question
Did I live this year to it's fullest?
As in did I do everything I could so that if I were to look back I would be happy and comfortable enough to say that I am proud of myself
Physically. Emotionally. Spiritually
And the honest answer is two fold
Of course this year has been chocked full of blessings that I wouldnt trade for anything
And just a movement of God
I could honestly say the last two years God has moved in me like he never has before
Like there's a newfound sense of maturity that has started to take root and set in
Its awesome really.
It leaves me thirsty and wanting more.
But then there is also the time where I havent been where I need to be with God
And although it may not be the best thing to look back but instead strive for the prize ahead
It makes me think of the things I've done
The things that noone likes
The things I wish I could have done different
Which also started me on a new train of thought
That my exsistance as a whole is so utterly futile without God
Without him teaching me
Without him directing me
Like a child at birthday party blindfolded
Swinging with all his might trying to hit that pinata
But its not until the mom or dad comes along and breaks it for him or her
And tells the child that they did it does it get done and the blessings of candy come out for every one to enjoy
Like God has been teaching me
You really are nothing without me
And I am inclinded to agree
That I do not ultimately shape my destiny
I just live in it day to day
And it my choice how I choose to live in the short exsistance I have been given
This momentary breathe of air before the awake and realize I'm in forever itself
And that it has not always been perfect
Definately nowhere near close to it this year
I've had my share of hard times this year for sure
But through this there is a sense of peace as it all draws to a close
And an anxiousness to see what lies ahead sets in
I'll be honest the happiest times this year have been when I'm really sold out
Sold out to Christ
Giving him everyday.Hour by hour
And although it is early to be making a New Year's resolution
I felt lead to do this
I felt like this last year I have struggled with apathy
And other things which have made me struggle
But the thing that has ultimately made me struggle is the fact that I havent always talked to God about them
I mean when you have a problem you dont stop talking to your best friend
On the contrary you actually get closer most of the time
And they to you
And that is God essentially
He is our eternal best friend
Our heavenly father
And he longs to be closer to all of us
He to us
And we to him
My resolution this year is simple
Plain and simple
To mature in Him
And make this next year the best year I possibly can for Christ
Because although things are certaintly not going to get easier from here
His love is never going to change
And that is something worth living for
Not just for 2007
But for an eternity
And that not only enriches our lives
It enriches our souls
1 I will extol the LORD at all times;
his praise will always be on my lips.
2 My soul will boast in the LORD;
let the afflicted hear and rejoice.
3 Glorify the LORD with me;
let us exalt his name together.
4 I sought the LORD, and he answered me;
he delivered me from all my fears.
5 Those who look to him are radiant;
their faces are never covered with shame.
6 This poor man called, and the LORD heard him;
he saved him out of all his troubles.
7 The angel of the LORD encamps around those who fear him,
and he delivers them.
8 Taste and see that the LORD is good;
blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.
9 Fear the LORD, you his saints,
for those who fear him lack nothing.
10 The lions may grow weak and hungry,
but those who seek the LORD lack no good thing.
11 Come, my children, listen to me;
I will teach you the fear of the LORD.
12 Whoever of you loves life
and desires to see many good days,
13 keep your tongue from evil
and your lips from speaking lies.
14 Turn from evil and do good;
seek peace and pursue it.
15 The eyes of the LORD are on the righteous
and his ears are attentive to their cry;
16 the face of the LORD is against those who do evil,
to cut off the memory of them from the earth.
17 The righteous cry out, and the LORD hears them;
he delivers them from all their troubles.
18 The LORD is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
19 A righteous man may have many troubles,
but the LORD delivers him from them all;
20 he protects all his bones,
not one of them will be broken.
21 Evil will slay the wicked;
the foes of the righteous will be condemned.
22 The LORD redeems his servants;
no one will be condemned who takes refuge in him.